Thursday, April 23, 2009

who cares...

who cares about the mother with no home, no hope, no help.
who cares that our brothers have no role models to turn them from boys to men.
who cares that we can't stop sending our sons to war
and that with all we have achieved
that there is no control, moderation or concern
for all that we still have a grip on.
who cares about our daughters
who find their self-esteem in men who consider them
bitches, scanks and...
who cares that we all need role models and guidance
that we need to tear down this hierarchy of suffrance, greed and need.
who cares that the only person I can rely on is me
who cares that with all the money in the world
no one has to go starving,
that we can have everything that we need, want and can conceive.
who cares that the rich stay rich and the poor
well, they never get rich.
who cares that we all know that with all that we have, if we just shared the
wealth, education and freedom we could extend better lives to all people throughout the world.
who cares...

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Fever of Love

I am humming all over
My heart beats two times just to keep up.
My mouth is dry
And the anticipation of you builds
With every memory of your smile.
The mirror of me only reflects you.
Our journey together conssumated in the silences.

When you left you took a piece of me. i felt it go...

She show's all her cards! uh oh...

Sonia:
"what year were you born?"
Malcolm:
"1975... you?"
Sonia:
"1972. This is the year of the ox... I was wondering what your chinese sign is? Do you know?"
Malcolm
“Monkey… I think…”
Sonia
“Of course” she says under her breath.
Malcolm:
“What’s ‘of course’?” he says with anticipation.
Sonia:
“nothing, nothing really, haha!”
Malcolm:
“Waiiit a minute! Spit it out!”
Sonia:
“Another time...”
Malcolm;
“Mysterious…”
Sonia:
“I just like to read about what astrology says about peoples personalities and
character”
Malcolm”
“so school me! Who am I?”
Sonia:
“so far you fit right into the monkey sign. And you’re a virgo?”
Malcolm:
“Whaa!”
Sonia:
“by the way you will come to find that I am exceptionally resourceful”
Malcolm:
“I knew that from the beginning”
Sonia:
“Soo – from what the horoscope says…”
Malcolm:
“??”
Malcolm:
“??”
Malcolm:
"????"
Malcolm:
“????”
Malcolm:
“????????”

They share a nervous laugh and a warm smile. Their eyes meet, but not for long. She looks down at her hands and fixes the bangles on her wrist as she scrolls down the page of her computer screen. He looks down at his shoes and pretends to brush something off his pants.

Sonia:
“It' really just confirms everything that I already see in you - it's a fun thing to read about when you first meet someone intriguing. It says here that you love to travel you are clever and charming and draw others to you…”

Malcolm shifts his weight in his seat and blushes slightly, but just enough to reveal his modesty.

Sonia
“You are quick witted and innovative – I agree – and have a total and intense belief in yourself”
Malcolm:
“Hey you're cheating and just reading your horoscope aren’t you?”


They share the same moment as before. This time their eyes lock for what seems like too long. She speaks to him with a coy smirk as she quickly picks up where she left off.

Sonia:
“Forget what the horoscope says, here’s what I think of you.”

Inhale, exhale slowly… knowing fully what she was about to reveal but not able to help herself when the moment was upon her.

“You are engaging, compassionate and loyal,
considerate intense and exceptionally creative.
You listen with your whole heart
And speak thoughtfully with your mind and soul.
You appreciate people and love women
..."

The words run away from her, too fast for her to catch them. Her heart booming in her ears. She stops only to breathe. Swept away by infatuation she swells a moment longer.

"You are playful and adventurous
And I love you’re mind...
How did I do?”
Malcolm:
“You forgot speechless and spellbound.”

They share another moment just like before. Where time stands still and thoughts become scattered with the thought of someone being in love with you.

Sonia:
“Wow...”
Malcolm
“Wow...”
Sonia:
“soooo... that happened...”


They're moment becomes awkward and forced for just an instant.

Malcolm:
“Ya”
Sonia:
“Ya... ummm...”
Malcolm:
“There would be so many things I too would say that would sound almost exactly like what you just cast now...”
Sonia:
“I'm going to write down what I just said, so that you can look at it and continue to be inspired by your spirit"
Malcolm:
“Particular souls are like mirrors, when their custodians work on polishing them. I think we just saw each other and the reflection caught us off God:).(guard)”
Sonia
“It was really good seeing you…”
Malcolm:
“Ya”
Sonia:
“Ya”

to be continued…

ha! made you look!!

I am sleepless and still asleep...
Last night I dreamed

A furrowed brow plowed through my decorum,

Pierced my solemnity

And grasped my dignity.


Sleepless though still asleep,

I tossed and turned out my insecurities

Envisaged my abilities

And gravity was lost in reverie.


I am asleepless...
awakened by the possibilities of dreams infinity